GONG HEYY FATT CHOYY~!!

haha i know.
It's kinda VERY late to wish everyone a Happy CNY here.
but it's the sincerity that counts rite.
God knows how the lim-bu's SUPER busy-ness over the weeks.
Life as a final year Pharmacy student. hmnnn....full of lots of exams and datelines after datelines which have made me almost a dead fish now.
But phewwwwwwwww 2 essays summited a few hours ago.
Wonderbeautifully~! Gone was my frgin midnight trains for the time being. bye!bye!bye! hallelujah!
One more presentation and a final year research project to go which due another month, final year exam in May then there goes my busy student life, for ever~!
I havent sleep well for quite a few weeks d. Who knows how is it like to work throughhhhhhhhhhhhhh the night. Night till dusk. Yeah pityfullll me. i know i am. 2 mugs of super thick coffee sustained me till 10am today, from dunno N hourssss of work. Overdose caffeine overdose work made up an ugly limeelaine =(
but oh well, i enjoyed the lay back after each uptight tho. guess that's one thing great abt being a student. U have ur busy times but each busy time brings u a super free and easy time. Like i m going for a skiiiiiiiiiiiiiii trip tmr~! Yaaay~!! n that's the reason y i m still here blogging even tho i am tireder than tired now. My time was too inverted these days. i m forcing myself to stay awake so as i can sleep at the "normal" sleeping time tonight, for the sake that i can wake up at the "normal" wake up time tmr. i will be departing Glasgow at 6:30am Sharp ( my usual sleeping time!)

Alrite, enough of my ketidak-habis-habisan. my CNY away from Home and let alone, being surrounded by journals and datas and patient's medical histories and clinical evidencesss obviously not a happening one for me this year.

The morning our neighbour came to Bai Nian. Actually not really morning d. It was 2pm. But the pigs at home just woke up n were all in our house-coat. i was still lazying in my sarong. Cho-1 wearing sarong. huh, pathetic kan? =)If ya observant enough, u can even spot some niples there. ekekekeeee. i m not telling u whose

For the sake of CNY, well we did dress up a bit for the day n went out to makan tho. Tradition mah. we went for this chinese steamboat buffet opened by the Hong kiss. The food was ok but the environement sucks. Y couldnt these chinese have some brain a bit. CNY eh, put la CNY songs, i can recommed u the very famost and popular M-gals (ahem) or even Long Piao Piao i wouldnt mind, but...they put up depressing chinese songs like "xin tai luan", "ta yi ding hen ai ni"..... Hey CNY day eh! like those ang moh knows what they are singing even if they dont put CNY songs. GggrrRRRR!! Over all, we had our day la.
Was having bad-hair day so i needed my hat.
Respecting and greeting the old lady is nth but a tradition of CNY mah rite. =p
And oh yeah~!! G A L A C A S I N O ~!!!! so the place baby~!! chinese peeps are really the gambling ghosts reincarnation i think. Seeing the extend of how my SIAO CHA BOHs who miss home this year CNY dont really missing "home" at all. Especially the one in Sydney who repeatedly self proclaimed that she DESPERATELY misses cong deng again and again on each and every post n blog comments. haha!! And the one in Cardiff who beh liao beh liao kacau to cong online deng with her. blek. want to hit me, come ler come beat me plz . we r milesss away i m not scared ;p

Back to my casino. The chinese in Glasgow are only like, erm. i shall say, 10% or less of the whole population. But in the casino. fuyo~!! u can see chinese and mandarine and cantonese everywhere around u! tiong kok lang la, singapore teng lang la, hong kong teng lang la, malaysia teng lang la...teng lang and teng lang all over which made up about 80% of the customers. no kidding no kidding. Until the only place in Glasgow who has the knowledge abt our CNY and not to mention, actually celebrating CNY is nowhere else but casino. They had this seafood buffett dinner and it's FREE!! All for the CNY day. See, how big the chinese brought business for them. And for each entrance, we have got the piggie red deco with the word "chai-shen-dao" and a "jin-yuan-bao" biscuit with a paper of casino points inside. Funny rite, the ang moh actually know abt chinse stuff and they actually know abt our pig year. I wonder they did the same thing for Christmas day in casino or not. MMnnn i shall suggest building a China Town Arch infront of the casino one day, since there isnt any China Town in Glasgow, unlike what Tvgirl had in Sydney.
Our strategy for the night-"pang pua liap". We were hopping to confuse the banker to make him burst. Not the eyes btw, and not the testis either. But the cards. We played blackjack. But obliously, my pua-liap was pang wasted. But it was really fun. especially the 2nd banker was very Very VERY handsome~!! not the DavidBeckham-handsome-but-cool type but that kind of innocent and handsome AND cute. He kept seducing us notti faced while pulling out his cards. And that type of smile. yumm yumm~!!
Asking myself how do i feel for not being at home for CNY. Well, it did strikes me during the friday night b4 CNY when both my keeko n cici and Ah Hen and sis and Tan Yee and Shin Yee and co (our family friends) all happily packing and departing to the airport together and flying back home without me.

Thinking of how my family having reunion dinner but me having bread here was not an easy feeling tho.

But all in all, it was one of my life time experience that i do cherish. i now know how is it like in the mood of something "mei feng jia jie fei xi qing", the chinese proverb i cant really remember that says, during festive season you miss home MORE...it was frggin true btw. Well, for one year or two i frankly dont mind, but if i have to miss CNY for too many years, no thanks!! No matter how much the air ticket, i DEFINITELY will fly home..

One of my highlight during the day was, i felt warm that CNY day when i walk home alone, imagining the CNY in KB, from the Pharmacy. There's one shy chinese guy walking passed by me and greeted me Xin Nian Kuai Le but didnt stop by. i greeted him back to his back. he waved without looking back. well, weirdo he was but tat kind of feeling like, ' Oh u r not alone". =)

See what i have got for my "ang Pow" this year. Two red patches in my hand baked by the oven. I worked a week b4 CNY, as a kiosk attendent in a football stadium. We have to take the pie from the oven and serve. But fun tho, more than half of peeps in my kiosks got attacked too and we ended up having blue-plastered in the end when we were off duty. My wounds were quite bad, especially my hand was somemore swollen. But i dont feel yucky at all since everytime i see it, i remember 65pounds. My salary. so i sabar and in the end it has the shape of 65 to me....

Dont worry people. it dried up d. Scar? nah, i apply Vitamin E cream and Alloe Vera gel almost 5secondly so it is nicely heal now. yaay!

Nightmare

Grabbed this pictures from my dear limeevone's friendster 2minutes ago. U kno, i seemed to have a case of deja-wu when i see them. kecut-hati saya !!! HAHA. hmnn..will throw away her baju kebaya the 1st thing when i m back home. To ensure that she will NEVER have another chance to wear that in the future to ANY kenduri. She wont need it anyway. I AM SURE! teeeee-heee

Cam-whoring

Honeyliciousyin has her brand new short hair and so do i ^.^ Cut it 3weeks ago but i aint have got the time to blog about over the weeks. so now it grows a bit d. Cam-whored some of this pictures yesterday midnight in my room for u peeps to see. Whoo-Hoo~!When ur long-spoilt-post-perm-dyed hair or poodle hair ( my bro used to call ) has become increasingly frustrating, hav it a HUGE cut can make u feel EXTREMLY so light! so easy! and so High!!! Everyday!

I took like 20shots in one go. Thank God none of my housemates broke into my room that time. All my face look so cacat. I always been very bad in self caption using my drling Canon ixus60. dunno y. but i can take really good one using my handphone btw. hehe (self-praising but really mar =) So my last desperate attemp. chiral image.
After that, i was drawn to taking my warm dearie cards and letters from all of my darlingssss posted across the seas to me over these months. Can u gals recognise anyone of urs? The baby with hat on was my birthday card from Aileen. So ngam-key i have got one pair of aeiou bday cards this year. The cute cow from tvgirl and the handsome goat from Ron. Gong-Xi-Fa-Cai card from QI and the CNY greeting from Aun. etc etc from my bro and sis, mom, Ron's sis from US, cousin from Malvern and not forgetin my dear house mates. I can read and reread and read AGAIN everyday at least once without getting bored. Their greetings and magical words have magically warmed me up in these freezing cold stupid weather.
Somemore Christmas card from Qi in Korea, New Year card and letters from my 2nd host sisters in japan, iHola from Ade in Spain and my postcard from my cousin back at home.
My proudest obsession--Angel collections~! Look at my baby among all---the white-lil-angel with the dreamy-innocent eyes.. I was drawn to this lil thing at my very 1st sight. Loving my tinkerbelle musical box and the green handmade christmas egg shell posted all the way from my new found friend i met in Norway from canada too. My current bed time reading-If you could see me now.
My bed and the photos of my loved ones
Then only i remembered i did took my new hair cut's pics 2weeks ago mah. I went to this Ceileith (scottish dancing) school party. I brought along my 4 indon friends. The one beside me is Besty. I met her in june when i couldnt find the way to the laundry room. She pointed me the directions and we ended up chatting non stop for abt half hour. We did exchanged phone numbers but we never contact each other until recently i sent a happy new year text to her. We yum-char-ed a few times after that. We were re-fated a bit too late since she will be back to indonesia in a week's time. We did promise to visit each other when we r both home but u kno, promises are easy to make than keep. Anyway, MSN can keep the whole world small wouldnt it? =)

my Febuary, 08

There is always some particular day, some particular time or even some particular place for anyone which resembles their someone or something in the past and it reminds u whenever it comes along....
and today... happened to be my dad's birthday.

It has already been four years.
tho I do still miss him occasionlly.. but sadly to say, over the years, over so many joyful and unjoyful things that has happened in my daily life, his memories is somehow beeing pushed inch by inch day by day to the inner most of me. Therefore I am afraid, very very afraid that one day, when i think of my father, there is just a vague memory left in me.

So, no doubt it is very painful to really miss someone who was not here and never will be here, being an opstimistic girl which believe in finding a possitive side in everything, So whenever it comes to the "big-day", i see it as a gift which enables me to replenish the memory of the daddy's little girl. So i will always spare out some time for myself to really look back and miss him...

P.s of the post : I wish how i see my "big day" will somehow influence and make any "big-day" of anyone of you a happier and meningful day rather than a depressing bad day.

one Blue day

Time flies. It's scary how fast each day passes (especially my normal wake up time like 2pm nowdays), and magically turned into months and without me even noticing, it is Febuary already!

Was reading Jasmine's blog before this and reminded me that, yea, Valentines day is just around the corner. Thinking back, I have never really celebrate any Valentines day before either. This day has always been just another day for me. How pathetic it sounds but true. Who created this day i wonder. Shall we thank him or her or shall we not? This day, as the love birds with their sweeter than sweetest smiless and roses and presents and fine diningss, along came the pains, as if the work of the devil, for those who have just broken up being more disappointing, those who always been single more miserable and sighhhhh for the long-waiting-true-love not found and also, those who are in long distance relationship even more unendurably misses their partner in that particular day. So what for having this day since everyday already like a valentines day for those who are steamingly-in-love? mnnn...unfair!

The 3am long chat with Ade yesterday night did strikes me the whole day today.

"why go back to kelantan to work la, u r only a 22years old young lady my dear u need exposure and social lifes!!! Go lar Kl or where, dont stay so pitifully in the Malays-monopoly-state wasting ur youth!!!"

I asked myself a million times today. Am i making the right choice for my life? I never like KL. The city the hastle the bustle the people and the traffic simply made me fckingly sick!! I have been declaring to everyone that i will be back in KB for at least 4 years while i m attached to the government hospital since i enter IMU. But now...being single and looking, there's this image keep on hunting me the whole today, the image of me in yellow Baju Kebaya and payung and bunga raya or whatever shit in my majlis perkahwinan with the Malay kenduri songs. Geee...NO THANKS GO AWAY! !

Go back home i certainly will and MUST. For my anti-KL sakes and also my mom and granny sakes. But for how many years or is it for permanent, see how it goes lah.

k k k, have to get back to my rifampicin isonizid pyrazinamide ethambutol streptomysin. They are so interesting i tell u. Like i so care. whatthefuck!

xams on fri. wish me luck friends!

P.s : Nway, thanks to Ade my headless hen, love being so concerned by u. Oh ya and not forgetting Aun for the M-girls VCD! I Got It I GOT IT YAAAY YAAY YAAY!!! help me thank Nelson for the trouble to post.. I have asked Han for the favour to help me buy the ori DVD also, together with Ni-luo-He and Ai Qing Mi Ma. Cant wait to go home n watch with home's TV!! QIIIIIIIIII!!! (can u hear i shout ur name?) ur lovely CNY cards!! love u soooOOO much!!! i sticked it on my room wall d.. thanksss!!